It's a common sign of the first stages of depression or stress, but right now I have no reason to have either. That said, I have noticed over the past week, I have struggled to switch off at night and stop thinking.
Anything and everything is game, thoughts flying through my mind at a thousand miles an hour. From friends to current affairs. Flitting from one subject to the next in the beast of my heart.
I am hoping to resume training in the morning, and hopefully that will serve as the energy draining mechanism I need. As will the yoga I have planned. Maybe that is best saved for the evening rather than mornings.
It is hard not to get caught in the momentum of this, and start worrying about stress and depression again. I know I have to get money sorted, but that isn't a huge pressure right now, or doesn't feel that way anyway. It could be what's causing it.
Either way, I will be keeping a close eye on myself over the coming weeks to see how things are. In a sense it is nice to have my complete free mind back, on the other hand, while still on meds it is a small concern that I am able to do so.
Before anyone suggests, yup I am familiar with relaxation techniques, and practice them. It's not the end of the world, when I do drop off, I sleep well, other than some strange dreams.
Another contributing factor is physical well being. Hip is 90% better but still uncomfortable at night. Knee is almost totally fine now. But my body being the funny bastard that it is dealt me a bout of gout in my ankle this weekend. Thanks body, you really do spoil me. Or is that ruin me?
Anyway, wide awake so wrote this to pass some time. New week starts in an hour. Here's to next week and training again.